Drake sounds like you did pretty well.
Many times the first curveball of the game fools the umpire. A big curve is often hard to get a strike called on anyway. You might want to consider your change up as a 3-2 off speed pitch, if you can command it.
Make sure that you are only considering statistics that reflect what you can control. Basically strikes, balls, walks and ks. Consider whether you made the pitch you wanted and located where you wanted. Did you field your position. I know that you want to win but you need to stay focused on your process as a pitcher. You need to force contact, but trying to get weak contact. That is your main job as a pitcher. Your walks are a little high but trying to eliminate all contact will cause your walk totals to be elevated.
I have been where you are. It isn’t that much fun but you can get through it and reach another level if you stay focused on your process.