Don’t go there, it’s a waste of your father’s money. On the other hand if slug’g it out with a paper route or doing other things to make your own money, then shelling out $150 or more for one of these things is a fair balance - go for it.
You’re going to find that YOU are not the most important thing that orbits an adult’s version of what should and shoudn’t be. Go a few steps up in the pecking order of the sports world and it gets even worse. Coaches, assistant coaches and staffers have a window on the world that’s kind of limited both in scope and purpose. And since your not invited into that world at the get go, it’s very difficult to assume what’s what.
I would suggest this:
1.) If you truely want to know what a coach is looking for - ask. Ask at the start of the season, " whatca look’n for skipper?" " You want just heaters, curver ball guys, control guys - what?"
2.) Listen carefully at how your question is answered. Does he bush you off with a “we’ll see”. If so, you’ve got your answer then and there - You’ll just have to wait and … see..
3.) Some coaches at the amateur level have little to say on who’s going to do what sometimes. Play a youngster for a few innings is just “expected” because of things that orbit the adult world, the organization’s makeup, sponsors and booster club pressure, politics, etc.
4.) You just may have an opinion of yourself that is not shared by those around you. This may be due to just “not fitting in”, talent in situtions that are a little better than you, or maybe the fielding team at the moment has a little better chemistry - you know … these youngsters seem to fire on all cyclinders when their together.
Last but no least is the “way things are”. Asking the moon to come out at high noon ain’t gonna happen no matter how hard we wish it so. Again, it’s just the way things are.
However, I’d say from reading your comments, you seem to be above average in the way you express yourself - beyond that of a 15 year old. So I would suggest using that imagination of yours to create a better time and place to get what you want. Get the gears moving between the ears and think you way out of this, into something that can generate some fun for you. I know that last remark sounds over simplistic, but just maybe, the simplest things can turn out to be not all that bad.