Alright so basically a lot of stuff going on close to graduation. I’ve already vented to myself so I’m out of all the depression, kinda. Anyways lots of demoralizing things happening lately, I mentioned earlier my senior project and I have to represent tomorrow and got most of the new stuff I had got deleted and some of it is not replaceable or recreatable (photos). I have no support from, my friend’s, teammates or family right now it seems like.
My academics are slipping because of all the time I’ve had to spend on my senior project.
I’m feeling like I don’t have any real friends because well none of them give me any support, ever, all I get for trying to tell them about my problems is cruel and condescending nick names and things like that.
Also, our baseball team sucks, I’m not even going to try and sugar coat it like I do to most people, we suck. We have four people who can sort of hit and only two of them can do it with people on base, our pitching is okay but we only have 6 pitchers. But mostly nobody shows up on time, nobody is focused and every game is turning into 10+ run blowouts because we can’t play defense. Hardly any earned runs against our pitchers but the defense sucks, terrible throws, holding the ball too long, throwing to the wrong base, booting balls, dropping flies, everything you can think of.
To be honest, the baseball, the school, the social problems are all starting to get to me and I’ve tried to be as tough skinned about it as I can be but lately I just don’t know if I can keep doing it. This sort of stuff has been going on for the last couple of months and it hasn’t gotten to me too much until now, all of it.