I legitimately need the reminder to relax. It's not in my nature, and these are stressful times as is, haha.
I get caught up, badly from day to day.
My high school experience has been largely sour compared to most, moving and switching environments sucks haha. That being said, i've spent a lot of time trying to assure that I"ll be happy and be ready to stay at the college I end up at for four full years.
I write the phrase "Follow your bliss" all over the place. A reminder to be happy and do what makes you happy. It's pretty mest up that I have to remind myself that.
Thank you. Seriously. You guys, along with a few others around here help aid in keeping my own mind in check. I tend to hit a lot of highs and lows (all too many), having people around me helps keep the journey on a more level path.
So last night was another night without enough sleep. Prepping for Calculus, working on my essays, etc. I pulled a 95 on Calc so that's good.
Today, just like every other day this week, I've totally lacked the motivation necessary to have a great lifting session. I've been told there's something to be said about not wanting to be in the gym and it being signs.
My CNS is starting to get burned from a lack of sleep and stress. Also, I just need to get in a rhythm with lifting and training. Looking back, because I ended up playing like 5 weekends this fall, I lost a lot of training days.
I decided to go Max Deadlift again. Still didn't feel great. Better than the other day.
395lbs just about slipped right from my hands. 435lbs was the hardest deadlift of my life. I didn't break the floor for a few seconds, and just missed breaking a nose bleed from having so much pressure and tightness.
455lbs is my max, and at the time, a conservative max. So that sucks lol.
Grip is generally considered a reflection of the CNS also. Now my grip isn't amazing, but if I"m loosing 395lbs, and having to hook to get 435lbs up, something just isn't all the way right.
Did a bunch of jump stuff afterwards.
Upon analyzing my weak points, I'm pretty certain that my rate of force development is my weak point. I can't clear nearly as much as I should be able to do if I can pull in the mid 400s (or better).
I've clearly got the strength foundations, so I'll continue working with my max strength, but I'm pulling focus away from that in order to develop the most explosiveness possible.
So I got a response from Cornell today. They've totally locked up their recruiting class and aren't looking at anyone else. At least they had the courtesy to respond right? The Coach said to let him know if I wanted details about walking on if I got into the university. That being said, even that proposition isn't encouraging if they are so locked up with 09s that they won't spend 15 minutes to see if maybe they could have something to offer.
I dunno, I found it a bit discouraging. I know they just got a new head coach, and then they've been weak in the Ivy forever, so I saw it as a viable shot.
I contacted Princeton, Yale, and Columbia all on Monday. I sent a follow up Thursday. Zero responses from them, so at this point I don't know that I should expect to really hear from them.
We'll see, I've contacted like 8 coaches in the past week, and the clear rejection from Cornell is the only response I've gotten. In my experience, if a coach is going to respond to me, I get it within a couple days. I"ll wait and see.
Touring, meeting the coach, and interviewing at Hopkins on Tuesday.
Wouldn't it be lovely if I could gain some ground in this process for once? haha.
So a comment my Coach made in class the other day made me realize that he had dropped the phone number I had been putting on my forms. I went in this morning asked him if the number I had was outdated. He wrote his current one on a notecard and said ok, and went right on back to whatever he was doing.
He knows i was asking for it for college stuff. And I didn't get even a, how's the search going, or where are you looking, or anything.
If I hadn't already decided I wasn't going to get any help it woulda been more of a disappointment I guess.
Atleast I won't keep putting the wrong phone number down anymore....
Finally, the song I've been playing endlessly trying to relax and turn my mind off: